28 de dezembro de 2013

"If you are wise you won't be deceived by the innocent airs of those whom you have once found to be dangerous."

What if there is not a realiable human being after all? What if all the people are only interested  in their own eventuallies? What if the person beside you is just another liar with a smile on their faces? It would be a lonely world.
But, what would you do?  Where would you go? Who would you be?  How would your life change?
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I came here to see you and after days without moaning, tears fall free from my eyes again. What if I had stayed there? I would probably be running from desperate calls for attention from my little cousins, just watching childish movies, rocking on the hammock with a little child laughing warmly in my arms. I would be preparing them something to eat and eating well. I would be looking at the bright stars of the countryside and feeling a soft breeze caress my skin. But I came here for love. And the result is tears. Tears I have not shed since the last time I was here. Maybe love is overrated.
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Maybe it's this room. I feel like a prisioner here, looked inside these walls, staring at the screen on my computer. My options seem to end here. And I want to feel the breeze on my skin. I want to walk outside and wander. I want to feel other's touch on my skin. I want a pure touch. Without judgements, without an opinion: pure touch. I want that child on my arms arms. And her pure touch caressing my skin, letting me touch her sofly and she would quietly just sit and observe.
How can I break free without breaking free? How can I fly without wings?